tin_tin_pinay's Xanga

Goodbye to one chapter in my life and Hello to a New Chapter.

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 04:42:41 GMT

I'm sorry but I have to say this. I'm leaving this Xanga. Why? Memories. Blah blah blah. Plus I hate the name. Hehe. I need something new, funky fresh. Start off the new school year with a bang. So farewell thee. I've had this xanga for about 3 years or 4 come to think of it. BYE BYE BYE.

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Friday, August 04, 2006

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 04:14:21 GMT

Gosh. I was going through all of my old blogs from my old xanga's and this one and I'm just amazed at how much I've changed. Remember when tYpiNG liKe tHiS wAs hELLA cOol? I mean people still do that because they think they are oh so cool, but hehe they probably aren't. Yeah some of my old blogs contained that type of ......typing. BUAHAHA.

I really did hate Middle School. My style was like WTF. I mean my style now is ok I guess but back then, man, so horrific I swear. The people in middle school were horrible. My social status? God, was I a DORK. I know I still am but I wish I could just turn back the clock and change everything I did back then. Ugh. I was a pathetic little thing in middle school I'll admit. High School might be a pain in the ass, but at least I have TRUE friends to lean on when the times get rough. That's all I need I guess....

Ninth grade was great. My style, got better I guess, social status? FUCK THAT. All I needed we're people to just be ME with, at school and out of school. I got that. Middle School was not good at all.

Sigh*..............LIFE.

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 04:01:43 GMT

Hmm....

Yesterday was great. Hung out with Sara and Rachel. First me and Sara went to Rachel's house, hung out, Rachel was like in her pajammies when me and Sara got there. We were like playing piano, talking, what not. Rachel took a shower and I did her make-up! Then we went to Malcolm's house.

When we were waiting for the bus, Cody, or his friend Nick kept calling my phone, blocking their number and talked in a high pitched voice. So, just to be funny, everytime they would call Sara would talk first and start saying random stuff and then I would end the conversations yelling and cursing at them. It was hilarious. Well, I thought it was. Cody and Nick were probably thinking 'WTF??' whatever.

We arrived at Malcolm's, he was still sleeping. Man, he went to sleep at like 3 in the morning. Can't blame him. Haha. We called him first because we wanted to surprise him but then his mom answered and told us he was sleeping. But then all of a sudden we see his face at the window. We all went inside. He's like remodeling his house so everything is like being moved around and stuff. That's cool though. We just hung out there for a like an hour or so. We stayed in the 'studio.' We played the piano. We played some songs on the computer. Me and Sara started boxing! That was DOPE! Haha. So did Rachel and I. FUN FUN FUN.

Malcolm took a shower and then we left his house to go to Frank's house. FRANK G. the III or something. Yeah. I haven't seen him in forever. GOSH. haha He's funny though. His house was nice. For some reason his house felt like home.

Then all of us including Frank walked to Savass's house. We we're all hungy but Savass didn't feed us that donkey bitch. HAHA.

We left and walked to Kevin's house. Kevin Hu. His mom is super nice and she remembers me from Kindergarten. That's flippin amazing. His brother is super cute. Nathan! Gosh. cute cute cute. He's probably like 2 or something. YEAH.

Walked to Sara's house and Frank and Malcolm went swimming while Sara, Rachel, Me, and Keving just watched them being retarded.

I'm starting to make custom t-shirt things. Yeah whatever you want to to call it. It's great. Check out my myspace to see them.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Sun, 30 Jul 2006 17:37:26 GMT

GoshDAMNIT. Remember when xanga used to be the shizznit? Do you remember? Seriously now. In like around the end of 6th grade and beginning of 7th grade, xanga used to be what most people would talk about. People would be like, "Can you fix my xanga for me?" Psh. Those were the days, huh? Now it's all about Myspace and everyone has one. It's like you cannot find a person these days who DOESN'T have one. Life is going too fast. Ohwell. Man did I HATE middle school.

My mom is like telling me she's going to leave me and my dad and go live in the Philippines for 2-3 months. She's like stressed I bet. She's always fighting with my dad about money and shit. Last night she was like crying. I didn't know what to do. Today she was like telling me that I'm going to have to be the one to write the checks and shit for the bills when she's gone. She's telling me everything about checking accounts and government money. FUDGE. It scares me. My dad doesn't know how to do ANYTHING. She's leaving it all up to ME. Man. I hope she's just going through some sort of phase and she won't be leaving me. I mean I can take care of myself. But damn, I have to take care of my dad, the house, the dogs, and the bills too? Life is definately going way too fast. I love my mom.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 23:49:22 GMT

Lance Bass from N'Sync announced to the whole god damn world that he's GAY. I am still a N'Sync fan and always will be. Man, Lance was the one I had a little celebrity crush on. You know? God, I was like what, 8 years-old when I had a crush on him? Now he's WHAT? GAY? Damn. Nothing wrong with being gay.

I understand that people have to "test" people to see if they are 'the one.' It's like try before you buy kind of thing. You have to go through people to see if they are what you want. I get it. It's okay I guess. You had to go through me to realize that what you really wanted was right under your nose.

Summertime is the best time for deep thinking ain't it? Chyea.

Monday, July 24, 2006

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 21:19:10 GMT

Hey bitches. You like the song to my xanga? Man it 'slaps' doesn't it? Buaha sorry for the swearing. I feel great.

FRISCO WAS AMAZING. I went shopping. The M.A.C PRO store was AMAZING! IT WAS HUGE. There was this one guy who helped me and he was great. I got blush for like $18. Then I got Rose pigment sample. Love it. Got a bunch of other things I can wear or use for school. *cough cough. Hehe.

I love FRISCO for life. That's my city. Urban Outfitters is the best thing in the world too.

It's flippin hot man. I can't stand it. I swear I drank like 7 water bottles yesterday.

I love San Francisco.

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 03:34:32 GMT

Dude I hardly go on this thing. I'mma try to go on here more. MMMkay?

I just saw Robin Thicke's new music video. What's it called.....Shooter? Or something like that. The song is like 'eh? wtf' but the video is beautiful. He's hot. Haha.

I love this summer. This is the summer where I've like done stuff. I don't want to be too specific but it's just good. I just can't believe I'm doing this.....it's one of those things where when you were younger you thought you would never do it when you're gonna grow up but now you've grown up and you're doing it. Haha makes no sense at all I know.

So what's up? What's going on in my life? Just some drama with my dad. He like threatened to kill me. Well you know he wouldn't kill me, kill me, but still dude, don't say that. He also did other things, I don't know, I don't want to mention. Let's just say that man has issues.

Hmm. Relationships. I'm not in one right now but it's okay. It's good. It's gravy. Haha. I don't need to be in a relationship right now you know? I mean it's nice to be in one but I don't really need one. Just look for Mr. Right now. Yadda? Haha. Then eventually Mr. Right will show up.

I'm getting heavier. Buaha. I have no other way to put it I guess. I gained almost 20 pounds since March or April? That's good though. I just wish the fat would go to certain places. Hehe.

Tomorrow I'm gonna go to Frisco wisth Sara and Rachel. YEE! I'm hella excited. I'm going to go crazy. Downtown Frisco, hmm, window shopping, M.A.C. PRO STORE HERE I COME. I'm gonna go to my uncle's hotel, since he works there and then I'm gonna go on these glass elevator things that shows the view of San Francisco. Hella beautiful I swear. Love the CITY.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 02:37:14 GMT

Summer 2006 has begun. Well for me it has.

Love it. This summer is everything a teenager can hope for. Doing illegal stuff. Staying up just listening to music. Sleeping in. Going swimming whenever you feel like it? Sorta but yeah. It doesn't matter if you don't hang out with your friends EVERYDAY. Make some time for yourself !!! Feel me??? Of course. But still make some time for them. Spend the whole day with them. YEAH. SUMMER ROCKS. Nothing can stop me this summer. Nothing to hold me down. No one to hold me down. Nada! Zilch! I'm loose like a Mother Goose. Slicker then butter mother fucker. I plan doing some other stuff too. I wish it was SUMMER ALL YEAR LONG.

What's happening lately in my life? Nothing much. Nothing big. Well, me and Sara, I guess you can say, are TRUE GANGSTERS. Haha. No forreal though. People claim they're gangsters but are they really? NOPE! They have no idea what is to be one. Gosh. I'm horrible. Let's just say it's easier to be bad then it is to be good.

ExBoyfriend.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 01:30:12 GMT

This blog is about the Exboyfriend.

I'm totally over it. Okay? I just want to free my mind of memories and explain about my feelings and my views about everything and plus right now I'm bored =). I'm not going to diss him because that's not very appropriate if you know what I mean. Just let me let everything out. I'm not venting though....just letting you know what I really felt. I'm not going to tell his name but I will refer to him as "the ex", HIM, or HE.

I met him a couple of years ago at the movies. He was with Malcolm of course and it was around the time that Rachel and Junior were going out. I remember that me and Rachel were about to watch.....um....White Noise I think? Whatever. All of a sudden we see Malcom and then "the ex" was like with him and I wasn't even aware that HE was there. Then all of a sudden I do see HIM and I thought he was short and weird. I DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF HIM THEN. So like when we went home I remember Malcolm told Rachel that "the ex" thought I was cute? Some shit like that. AGAIN I DIDN'T THINK ANYTHING OF HIM.

Couple of months past and what...the next time we see each other was last summer when we all watched Fantastic Four. Haha HE was wearing a hella big black jacket when the weather outside was like 100 degrees. haha.

Forgot most of that crap. Okay um......gosh.

Things started to get "interesting" around the beginning of this year? Yup. Rachel, Sara, Malcom, "HIM" went to the bay, went "swimming" and slept over Julian's house. I remember HE wanted me to give him my stunna shades but I didn't give it to him. I gave my shades to Matthew, Julian's little brother. I don't know why I did that though. I started to think about HIM....but then in my mind I was like no....he might not be into me.

I remember I think I called Malcom this one night with Sara but like HE answered? I just started talking to HIM and like I was joking around calling him my eskimo buddy. I made that up from the top of my head.

Then HE got my phone number from Malcolm and then we just started talking. Gosh. Like everything was like awesome. Sorta?

HE started putting stuff on his myspace about me. Making me actually feel important. No one made me feel that way in a while. Butterflies is the way to describe my feelings towards him then.... He was writing all that sweet stuff about me. Gosh.

HE asked me out. I felt like I was on top of the world. Everything just felt great.

First couple of weeks was good. Yes HE was my first kiss and yeah. Everything was perfect. No.....it wasn't perfect. I only got to see him once a week and in the back of my mind I felt like we shouldn't even be together because this isn't going anywhere and I kept thinking there might be something he was hiding. Like I can't explain it. All I can say is that I have trust issues. I can't trust anyone now. After all the shit that's happened in my life....I just can't trust people.

So as days go by our conversations became dull. I'd ask him a question and he would just say "I don't know."

I broke up with HIM because I felt that there was something that he was hiding, and there sorta was. Also because I just couldn't do it anymore, it wasn't going anywhere.

Of course I still think about from time to time. He probably isn't thinking about me but it's okay. He made me feel like I was worth something. I thought this could work out somehow but it didn't. It hurts to find out stuff from other people. Yeah, it felt bad when I found out about...stuff.

Love is a strong word. I just felt obligated to say it? I don't know. If you are going to say that word to someone, please, just make sure that you know you're not going to hurt them in the end. I mean I didn't hurt him. What he did, he should know. Don't say it.

When I was a kid I thought love was like real. I don't believe in true love I believe you can really like a person for who they are and what they can offer you. No, I'm not saying that I don't believe in love anymore after this whole thing.

I really liked him.

Shit. Like anyone is going to read this xanga anyways.

Friday, June 02, 2006

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 03:07:48 GMT

GOD. I know I'm horrible. I'm a person who will continue to get everyone confused. I tend to say something but I don't really mean it? No. I'm just really complex. I'm only faithful and truthful to the people I know I can trust. I can be like that to certain people. Just some people now, I know I can't trust them anymore.

People, and I mean everyone talks so much shit about other people just to vent.

People like need to talk so much crap just to make themselves feel better. Yeah I say certain things, but not to a point where it might hurt me and some certain people. Buaha. Yeah right. Whatever. I'm sorry. Well I'm not sorry for the things I said behind this one person's back. I've actually been talking about this person for quite some time now. You're just as bad as me. NOPE. Naw....you're worst.

I'm not hurting anyone though. They are so blinded by "friendship" that they don't see what's really being said to their face. AMAZING.

Hey everyone. How's it going. I haven't done this whole xanga thing in a while. The truth is that I have not been busy. I've just been to into that Myspace thing. Being lazy is another thing.

What's happened since March?

New relationship with someoneEnded that relationship
Got really drunk for the first time
Braces

Yeah nothing exciting.

"Life is like a box of chocolates....you never know what you're gonna get."

That quote is so true. I thought my last relationship was going to be a good one. A REALLY GOOD one. Nope didn't last. I'm going to admit yes it was PARTIALLY my fault because I'm crazy. You should know that by now. But seriously, if you're going to LIE to me even though I know what you've been saying and talking about behind my back what's the point of this relationship? It wasn't going anywhere. I only saw him like once a week. We talked on the phone like almost everyday. Conversations started getting dull. He did one thing that triggered me to check his myspace. Although I've logged into his myspace, I never read his messages. But what he did, made me just want to make sure that there was no "YOLANDAs". Whatever. I checked his messages. Freaking talking about me.